Self Care - We All Need It

So, I'm not usually the type to call in sick for just being tired... but today is an exception.  Last night, I had that distinct joy of laying awake for 3 hours in the middle of the night.  I think wanting to sleep but not being able to fall asleep is probably the worst feeling in the world.  Of course, given the wonderful spectrum of my luck ... I managed fall back to sleep about 20 minutes before my alarm went off ... So, here I am.  On the couch because when my alarm went off I realized that I would rather burn 9 hours of leave than get out of bed.
 
Part of my problem last night is that once I was awake, I couldn't fall back asleep.  My mind just kept buzzing about all of the items on my to do list.  And let's just put it this way, it wasn't pretty.  I've been feeling pretty overwhelmed the last few days.  Like, I can run a thousand miles an hour but still can't get everything done in time.  I can't get everything done at work, I can't get everything done at home and I can't get everything done for the wedding.  Our house is still messy.  Things are still in boxes.  Nothing has been hung on the walls.   I haven't picked my bridal jewelry.  I have invitations that need to be resent because I was given wrong addresses, which means I have invitations to reprint, re-cut and reassemble.  It's a good thing that I didn't pay someone to do them because fortunately, there isn't much of a financial impact for me to reprint them.  But there is a time impact.  Dan and I haven't figured out how we want things to go for the ceremony.  I haven't gotten Dan's wedding ring yet either ...  Le sigh. 

I've always had an issue with putting myself first.  I'm one of those people who will give of myself until there is nothing else to give.  And then, I get sick, I get run down and I get crabby.  And to paraphrase the Hulk, you won't like me when I'm crabby.  Not to mention, when I neglect myself, there are certain parts of me that neglected first ... And that's not a path I'm planning on walking down again.

So I'm on laundry load two of the day and am feeling better.  I slept til 8:30, which really is an accomplishment for me (do I sound pathetic or what?).  And I feel less stressed.  Sure, I'll have a mountain waiting for me tomorrow at work but self care, right?  I realized this morning (AKA 1 AM) that me taking one day for me is more important than the consequences tomorrow. 

Well ... I'm determined to take care of myself today.  Because I deserve it.